Love, Actually.....

this story is not like any other story u would ever listen to.... cause this is waaay deeper than any of you can imagine....many of u may think it's ridiculous, but unfortunatly it is true....i am one guy who will never find true love, cause once he found it....he always ends up losing it againest his will.....it's just that he meets the right girl at the wrong time....he loved 2 times....the 1st time was when he was 8....i know, ehery body thinks that it's a very woung age to know love...but actually....it was pure love for him, the 1st time he knew about it.....love have reasons, but not always be what u wish....she was his motive, he was 120 kg weight....we knew nothing about social communication, but he tried hard....and trained hard....putting her picture in his mind as he lifts weights and trains days and nights to impress her.....eventually did it, won to be shooting club champion coming in 1st place....but as we know, life is unfair.....as her love grew, she hated him more and more......till he changed his school and try to forget.....however....her memory kept with him all the time.....he tried to forget, once by having girlfriends more than anybody can handle....but....no use.....and.....his death continued, although he thought that going on with this he would forget this never happened.....till one day....when he was at his usual work....an angel entered......this was one day he will never forget.......it was a day he never knew what did he feel....the look in her eyes made him feel as if he can touch the sky....and bring down the moon for her to keep.....she was one he never belived to exist in this life.....the only one who could understand what will he say before he do.....a single look from her to his eyes exposed all his secrets, made him surrender to her will....but as we did agree before.....life was never fair....he found out that he was too late....after he did surrender his heart....he knew that he would never have a chance....so all he did was try to gather every moment he could with her...and treasure it in his heart.....but eventually,as many dreams.....this dream hit the rocks by the sea to be shattered to million pieces.....waking him up to the reality that he is actually breaking up the life for the one he loved.....it took him long time of thinking....but....eventually he had to face the fact....and face the destiny....this was never meant to be.....however.....true love is not about what he wanted....cause if he did love her....he will care about her happiness before his own....no matter what is costs him of pain and suffering....all he was thinking about is....could he fix what he did??? can he get her life back....he is trying to.....he promised to....and all he have is to wish her happiness....and hope to do what he have to do....and pray for god to help her find happiness, wish for all her dreams to come true....and hope she dont hate him....cause after all....no matter how life turns around.....she will be treasured in his heart for the short time left for him to live....